No title.

Just, I feel regret. Stupid.
Fuck me.
Hate me.
Hit me.
I deserve it.


Who is our guardian? Everyone has their own view on who is their guardian.
To me, my guardian is my parents.
My mother especially. She is the one who guide and protect me in this world. She is the one who had to get through the difficulties on gives birth. She is the one who feed me, protect me. She is the one who thought me how cruel this life could be.
This is a letter through blog that I wrote for you. My mother.

Dear Mak,

Mak, I am sorry for what I have done towards you. I know I'm not a good son. I'm not. I know that is the truth. I know that you want me to be the best, good person in this world.
Well, I'm trying to be the best. Slowly. I can not change myself immediately to someone who is pious. I am so sorry for what I did. So, sorry.
But, I know. Sorry is not enough kan mak? I do not know what to do. I do not know how to be like you want me to be. For that, I am sorry mak.
I already made a promise to myself. I will be pious, a good person, a good child and a good friend. I will be. Not now mak. Not yet. But I will be. I promise. Once, I am what you want me to be. I will come home. I will come home with head hails up high. A son that you want me to be. That time you will be proud of me having a son like me.
I know it is kind of late to regret right? At least, I do feel regret.
Anyways, I am sorry mak. So, sorry. I hurt you so many times. Countless. This I promise you.
I love you still. And I am sorry.

Your disobedient son.

So, a letter from a disobedient insolent ungrateful son.
For you my stalker who is reading this. Be grateful, be obedient and be polite to our mother. Do appreciate them for what they have done to us.
"Dah terhantuk baru nak terngadah"
"Dah terjatuh baru nak menggelabah"
Do not make those quotes as your quotes in your life.
Good night folks.

Dreams? Hopes? Ambitions?

Hello stalkers! :D
Ha Ha Ha
Cuz tonight will be the night that i will tell you...
Over agaaaaaaain...
Don't make me change my mind!

Alright! cut the crap already!
Tonight, I just feel like want to tell you stalkers about my dreams, hopes and ambitions. Sebab, at the moment I feel like want to wrote what i feel. :D

Currently, I'm taking Certified Accountant Technician, CAT. This is my last semester in this course. So, After this, I'm going to find a part time work just to fill up my time before my June Exam result is out. :) So, my age would be 21 years old at that time.

So, lepas dah keluar result and takde repetition. I think I'm going to apply any local universities to further my study in accounting . Perhaps, I'm going to take Audit as my major. masyoooook woo keje auditor!! It would take me about 3 to 4 years to finish it. And my age would be 24 or 25 years old.
Ha Ha ha

Right after i finished my degree, I'm going to send my resumes to all possible companies. Work for a few months. And then, I would like to further my studies in Masters, MBA, that would take about a year and then PHd in 2 years, as a part time student. My age would be 28. :)

Dah sampai seru dah rasanya waktu itu. :p Get married at 28 years old! Tua seyh!
Ha Ha Ha
Work. Work. Work. Work. Make love. Make child. Live happily with my lovely future wife, Nurul Atiqah binti Bahrul.

Okay. After that. My last exams, my last courses, my last papers, my last classes would be in Association of Certified Chartered Accountant, ACCA. :) That would be the very last course and after that all my plan would be a success.

Work. Work. Work. Make Love. Make child. Live happily ever after. :)

Hope everything that I planned akan berjaya ditunaikan!

Excited! :D

Yeay!! On 3rd January is my entrance to my last sem as a Certified Accountant Technician! :D
Im so excited to finish it!

Well, hopefully theres no failure. If there is any failure of any paper. Damn! Have to add up another 6 months. =.=

Anyways, im going to do my best and be the best and also beat the best! :D
watch out! Ha Ha Ha



2011, ready or not, here i come :)
First of all, aku rase dah lame gila aku tak update blog kesayangan aku ni.
Tak tahu reasonnye kenapa.
Tapi, mungkin sebab utamanya MALAS!
Whatever it is tahun baru ni aku cube untuk aktif dalam mengupdate blog.

Okay. Now is the time for my azam tahun baru. :)
2010, you have been good to me all this year. All the obstacles and experience had taught me a lot about life.
Thanks 2010.
2011, tahun baru, azam baru, bla bla bla yada yada yada.
Typical kan. Ha Ha Ha.
Actually, i dont have any azam. Yet. But i do have a friend named Azam.
Okay! Cut this crap.
I do not know what will I get through but I do know that I will make sure that my life will be awesome this year. It just that I hope for this year coming will make me a better person. Better student. Better children. Better Khalifah. Waaaah! Harapan setinggi gunung.

So, 2011! Be nice to me!!

Man & Wife

An elderly couple in a retirement community was surprised by
a knock on their door late one night. Morris, the husband got
up to answer the door, only to find a huge and intimidating
man staring back at him.
"Oh, this is terrible! I'm going to be robbed and lose all
my money!" the old man screamed.
"I'm not a robber," said the man in disgust. "I am a rapist."
"Oh, thank goodness!" said Morris with much relief. Then he
shouted, "Elaine, it's for you!"
p/s: is there any man of this kind out there?? lol... soooo.... wtf!!

Sight of Love

Sight of Love

This is a story that i wrote in Form 5. Back then this story was not finish. I just finish it about 3 days ago. Funny thing is i found this behind my SPM slip. lol.... So, enjoy your reading!

It takes place on a bus. I’m not sure, but to me, it brings warmness to the heart. If u know what I mean. Just, read my writing.

The passenger on the bus watched sympathetically as the attractive young woman with white cane made her way carefully up the steps. She paid the driver and, using her hands to feel the location of the seats, walked down the aisle and found the seat he’d told her was empty. Then she settled in, placed her briefcase on her lap and rested her cane against her leg.

It had been a year since Natasha, 34, became blind. Due to a medical misdiagnosis she had been rendered sightless, and she was suddenly thrown into a world of darkness, anger, frustration and self-pity. And all she had to cling to was her husband, Daniel.

Daniel, wan an Air Force officer and he loved Natasha with all his heart. When she first lost her sight, he watched her sink into despair and was determined to help his wife gain the strength and confidence she needed to become independent again.

Finally, Natasha felt ready to return to her job, but how would she get there? She used to take the bus, but was now too frightened to get around the city by herself. Daniel volunteered to drive her to work each day, even though they worked at opposite end of the city. At first, this comforted Natasha, and fulfilled Daniel’s need to protect his sightless wife who was so insecure about performing the slightest task.

Soon, however, Daniel realized the arrangement wasn’t working. Natasha is going to have to start taking the bus again, he admitted to himself. But she was still fragile, so angry – how would she react? Just as he predicted, Natasha was horrified at the idea of taking the bus again.

“I’m blind!” she responded bitterly. “How am I supposed to know where I am going? I feel like you’re abandoning me.”

Daniel’s heart broke to hear those words, but he knew what had to be done. He promised Natasha that each morning and evening he would ride the bus with her, for as long as it took, until she got the hang of it. And that is exactly what happened. For two solid weeks, Daniel, military uniform and all accompanied Natasha to and from work each day.

He taught her how to rely on her other senses, specifically her hearing, to determine where she was and how to adapt to her new environment. He helped her befriend the bus driver who could watch out of her, and save a seat for her.

Finally, Natasha decided that she was ready to try the trip on her own. Monday morning arrived, and before she left, she threw her arms around Daniel, her temporary bus-riding companion, her husband, and her best friend. Her eyes filled with tears of gratitude for his loyalty, his patience, and his love. She said good-bye, and for the first time, they went their separate ways. Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday… each day on her own went perfectly, and Natasha had never felt better. She was doing it. She was going to work all by herself.

On Friday morning, Natasha took the bus to work as usual. As she was paying the bus fare, the driver said, “Girl, I do sure envy you.” Natasha wasn’t sure if the driver was speaking to her or not. After all, who on earth would ever envy a blind woman who had struggled just to find the courage to live for the past year? Curious, she asked the driver, “Why do you say that you envy me?”

The driver responded, “It must feel good to be taken care of and protected like you are.” Natasha had no idea what the driver was talking about, and again asked, “What do you mean?”

The driver answered, “You know, every morning for the past week, a fine-looking gentleman in a military uniform has been standing across the corner watching you as you get off the bus. He makes sure you cross the street safely and he watches until you enter your office building.

Then he blows you a kiss, gives you a little salute and walks away. You are one lucky lady. “Tears of happiness poured down Natasha’s cheek. For although she couldn’t physically see him, she had always felt Daniel’s presence. She was lucky, so lucky, for he had given a gift more powerful than sight, a gift she didn’t need to see to believe – the gift of love that can bring light where there is darkness.


Its been a while since I have last updated my blog.
Busy with my Internal exam.
Now, internal week has past! yippie!
But, sadly my result was not good enough. sigh.
Anyways, it is just internal.
Important! External! That is important!
Waiting for external exam and currently preparing for it!

I went out with my love today! ;-)
I saw.. u can say a hilarious scene!
I went to GSC Signature, Garden for a movie.
There is only two couple in that cinema; me and my love and another Chinese couple.
To make it short.
The thing that make it hilarious was they were caught, I think it is because the girl give a "blow job" to his partner. In a cinema!! Get caught!! lol... get a room guys!!
Making me feel arouse! :p wanted to do so with my love! kidding!!!!
After about 5 to 10 minutes both of them went out from that cinema.
Maybe, kena halau! hahahahaha..
What a stupid attitude! blow job in a cinema??? wtf!!!
Anyways, it was nice, fun and a lovely day to spent quality time with my love today.
I miss her already!! ;-)

In Love!! :)

BELLA LUNA by Jason Mraz

Mystery the moon
A hole in the sky
A supernatural nightlight
So full but often right
A pair of eyes a closing one
A chosen child in golden sun
A marble dog that chases cars
To farthest reaches of the beach and far beyond into the swimming sea of stars

The cosmic fish they love to kiss
They're giving birth to constellations
No riffs and oh no reservation
If they should fall you get a wish or dedication
May I suggest you get the best
For nothing less than you and I
Let's take a chance as this romance is rising over before we lose the lighting
Oh bella bella please
Bella you beautiful luna
Oh bella do what you do
Do do do do do

You are an illuminating anchor
Of leagues to infinite number
Of crashing waves and breaking thunder
Tiding the ebb and flows of hunger
You're dancing naked there for me
You expose all memory
You make the most of boundary
You're the ghost of royalty imposing love
You are the queen and king combining everything
Intertwining like a ring around the finger, of a girl
I'm just a singer, you're the world
All I can bring ya
Is the language of a lover
Bella luna, my beautiful beautiful moon
How you swoon me like no other

May I suggest you get the best
Of your wish may I insist
That no contest for little you or smaller I
A larger chance yet, but all them may lie
On the rise, on the brink of our lives
Bella please
Bella you beautiful luna
Oh bella do what you do
Bella luna
My beautiful beautiful moon
How you swoon me like no other, oh oh oh

P/s: Serius doe lagu ni sedap. Terngiang2 lagu die. Hahaha...
I listen to this song almost every minute.
In Love. In Love.
In Love. :p

First day of BURDEN

Huh huh huh...
Phew... ;0
Its the end of my first paper of Internal Exam.
Recording Financial Transaction.
Its quite easy.
For those who studied last minute.
Its easy.
For those who studied well.
And, for me...
Its easy...
But then,
Setakat nak lulus tu senang r..
distinction tu...
Bonus r!
Gambate yo!!!